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Some times silence is the worse treatment someone can give you. It hurts when you have no idea what you've done. Or you're being blamed for something that other people caused. I can't win against an organisation that is in charge of me. I don't like being given the silent treatment. It doesn't matter how I feel about anyone. It hurts because if someone gives you the silent treatment they are disrespecting you. They give you no explanation and act like a complete prick. I couldn't care less who they're dating. I'd never go out with them and I was a fool to say yes because they were too old for me. I thought I was a friend though so being disrespected this much by them is upsetting me. Also I've heard that friend of mine is with another woman who is one of them who doesn't like him to talk to other women. I don't think that's fair on women like me because I'm not a threat. As 1 I don't want him in the way she wants him, just as a friend. and 2 Look at me ... I'm really no threat, apparently she's tall and blond. I'm short, curvaceous have a disability. I don't like other people who don't even know me saying who can't talk to me. If she's that insecure she should look in the mirror and start to believe in herself. I would never do that to any man I went out with. It's messing with the laws of free will and when that starts happening in a relationship then you have no basis for trust. I'm not happy and if I ever come face to face with this woman in a pub etc I'll not hold any of my opinions back. I'm not as shy as I used to be and my excuse will be I'm only looking out for an ex friend. Also controlling women or extremely catty bitchy women really piss me off. They are one of my pet hates. Mostly because I'm always on the receiving end as for some stupid reasons they feel threatened by me. I have to live with Aspergers Syndrome. Just because I have the looks doesn't mean a thing. I have a battle every day with my traits and it doesn't help when people just make it harder for me. I'm trying to carry on with my life but in the back of my mind it's niggling at me. I'm a strong person that can act like she doesn't give a shit but underneath I'm hurting as friends aren't suppose to ditch each other. If people want to play dirty though I will play the game because I want to protect myself and show bitches that bitch me or back stabbers that I won't take it. That is my rant for tonight. I have to go now.