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I'm currently looking for houses to rent. It's a very slow process but I'm also very indecisive which doesn't help. I was put off by the first flat I saw which was dirty, dark and cramped. I haven't gone to look round a property since that was three weeks ago. I've now regained my braveness to look around again I have made arrangements to view a house locally on thursday at 3pm. I have just got rid of a headache that lasted three days. I still don't feel completely right yet but a lot better than I've felt in the last couple of days. I seem to have back ache as well which may have caused my headache. I really want to go for a walk but it has already rained today so I'm scared of getting soaked like the other week. I don't enjoy walking in the rain at all after that. I'm on yet another diet. I have stocked up on fresh vegetables and some fruit, light choices and weight watchers meals and mini quiches. I have even switched to weight watchers yogurts. I don't find them as nice but those muller rice ones I normally have things that probably would cause bloating. I have brown nimble bread. Shreddies and cravendale creamy milk so I don't have to use so much. I learned from a vegan I used to know that milk is used to fatten up babies but also has the same affect on us. If I want to lose some of my excess fatty bits then I can't overdo the milk. I have the green capped one which tastes nice without being too watered down like the red capped ones. I have tried to put up with the red capped ones taste but I find it disgusting. I tried replacing normal milk with rice milk but I found that awful. I have cut out all sweet stuff and hardly ever eat chocolate. I am taking the painkillers still but that is harder to get off than I imagined. I am well aware that it is damaging to me in the long term but right now it helps me cope. I'm planning on trying to make this website more active again. As quite a few of the regular visitors know, my dad was given the parents section to manage. Obviously since his death there has been no one to really over see that section of the site. I've waited quite a while to ask for parents of people with ASD's (or ASC's if you prefer that term) to contribute to it again due to coming to terms with things. I think it's time to have a rethink on the whole website too. I'm really missing someone too which is getting me down a lot. I wish the woman would just contact me it's stressing me out. I know she doesn't realise how much it hurts my feelings so there's no point getting upset over it. I can't expect someone to understand feelings they've probably never felt because they don't have the same thought processes as me. The weather is annoying today. It's warm, yet not sunny, the clouds look like they're storing rain, yet we only had a shower for a while earlier. It can at least give us some sun or even wind to move the indecisive weather clouds.