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I've been so lazy at this moment in time. I just can't be bothered as feel quite flat emotionally recently. Yes I do have THAT reason why I may be feeling this low. It's not just the time of the month though. I think all the things that has happened this year is finally sinking in. I have been busy with college work and other things so I never had time to think about the state of things around me. I no longer have a Dad which is hard to get used to since I was a daddy's girl. I feel things in m own way not conventionally.  I am coping with it quite well apparently according to other people who have lost relatives. I don't know how I'm suppose to react to it. I don't see the point in making a big deal out of it isn't going to change things. There is no way of reversing what happened. It's an irreversible situation. I can't find any places to move to that I like. Some of them didn't even reply to my enquiries so it's back to the drawing board. I'm hoping something good comes up in the locality of eaton socon/eaton ford (st neots, Cambs). If anyone sees anything drop me the details via email. I am looking in as many places as possible. I know that I haven't really spoken to anyone much over the last week but I'm still around. I just needed time to think without other people influencing me. I also thought if I shut up that people wouldn't always think so badly of me. I just don't feel like fighting for people's acceptance anymore. I lay on my bed most of the day friday and saturday and only went for a short walk on sunday. I seem to be able to lay looking up at the ceiling for hours without realising it. I haven't done anything really in weeks. I desperately need my hair trimming as the ends are really unrepairable. I twist the ends round my fingers and it breaks. I can't help it as I do it as a habit. I don't feel well today so not been for walk. Instead I cleaned the whole of my room, did washing and food shop. I feel better mentally knowing that is all done for this week and I won't need to worry about it till after I come back from my mums house. I am going home for a week on Friday, I still have to tell the place I'm living in as not informed them yet.