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I admit to being completely and utterly lazy today. I was so exhausted that I just had to sleep a lot or lay around because had hardly any energy. I had to build my strength up to make my main meal and dozed off straight after I'd lay down after eating that. I think the heat is getting too much for me after trying to live in this weather for a week. I currently have only been awake for about 2 hours and now I'm literally dozing off. I've been drinking water but probably not as much as I should be in this weather. I didn't go out at all today. I couldn't face it mentally either, the thought of going out seeing people was just too much. I have arranged viewings of possible places to move to locally on wednesday. I am being shown a flat and two 1 bedroomed houses hopefully if the woman at the agency gets the information through for the second house on Monday. That's all I had the energy for today. I feel completely terrible and since I haven't moved much today I've stiffened up which just makes it so much more energy draining to move. I know that I should go the doctors but I'll only get lectured about my habits with pain killer popping etc. I'm relying on them a lot right now. As they have caffeine in them I logically should be able to perk myself up to give myself an energy boost but that theory isn't working right now. I'm not in the right mind frame to quit them at this moment in time because this year so far has been so full of changes which I must come to terms with first. I don't highly abuse them now. I'm not as bad as some addicts who take a box a day. One guy took 8 a day and died from a stroke. I know the dangers and I'm prepared to take them. I would never take more than 4 a day on a regular basis. I have been taking them since I was at school so it's too late to think about the damage now because it will have been done a long time ago. I'll update the blog on the housing situation.