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I'm going to have to be very brief as it's getting late as I'm off to bed in a bit. I know I haven't blogged for a while, naughty me. I haven't really had much to say or even wanted to say much. I'm biting my nails again (yes I know that's  bad). I don't know why I'm biting them again but I just started again the other day. I think the last few months are finally catching up with me. I suppose it will as I'm not busy with college work anymore so I have time to think more. I have felt generally miserable this week but I think that is down to the monthly event us women have to go through. I've now finished college apart from having one key skills exam to do next tuesday (the dreaded maths one). Then I'm free. I'm not sure what I want to do with my life but at some point after a year out I plan to go to university to study Journalism. Although I still may change my mind. I know that I have the potential to go to university but I may not decide to go back into education. It's an expensive route and I'm not sure I wish to spend most of my younger life as a student. On the other hand it could get me a step up the ladder for jobs so that I wouldn't have to 'work my way up'. I know that you don't have to go to university to get a decent career but it's an option that I could take. I keep changing my mind right now but it's not my number one priority yet. I'm just waiting to move out of the residential place into my own flat. I'm having trouble with funding and how much the local authority is willing to pay for someone to come in to 'check on me/help me with things'. They want me to have a home help stranger come in and the care company I'm with wants their staff to keep an eye on me because obviously I know them. I keep getting pins and needles in my legs. I go for a walk each day but I still get this and it is getting so annoying not to mention painful when they seize themselves up after I've been sitting for a while. It's not like I'm sitting for hours. I get up regularly because of how my legs are right now. I had that cyst thing behind my knee so I'm hoping I haven't got other things going wrong there.