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I'm near the end of college. I finish on Wednesday. I haven't been able to attend classes for the last couple of months because they kicked me out of them. I'm extremely bitter about it. I can't help it. It hurts even more when people just say that I deserved it. They keep saying the tutor spoke to them about it, these are other students. Apparently she was telling them that the messages I was sending her was freaking her out. I know that tutors aren't allowed to do that but that isn't the point. I never deserved what I got ok. I have been misunderstood for many years. I'm not a nasty person, I generally do care for others. It's just a shame that I never get that returned from them. I just get treated like a freak and scrapped off like a piece of shit on their shoes. I'm not prepared to accept it any longer. I've been too nice most of my life. I don't know what people say behind my back but I can only assume it's horrible. That is probably either because they're jealous (the more you are nasty about me the more I improve so quit it) or they see my weakness that I take it to heart. I have my final major project to do but my bitterness is coming out in my work. It's always about revenge even though I don't particularly want to seek it but that is how much it has hurt me. I am a hard working student and I have tried to prove how much I never deserved to be excluded. I got a distinction on my last piece of work and a merit on the script writing. I have no idea if I can make up the grade on my practical assignment but I'll find out when I give that in. I've had enough of being excluded from society when there are so many other options to take before the establishments take that one. I'm a valuable member of society despite my past. I'm not one of them mentally unstable idiots you see on the news doing shooting sprees. If people bothered to take the time to get to know me then they would see that. I didn't deserve what I got especially since my Dad died in the middle of it all. I am sure I'm one of the only people left who has some kind of compassion for others emotional pain. They had no regard for what I was going through. I wasn't even invited to defend myself at the meetings. I find that extremely nasty. I saw a programme on BBC Switch the other day where this boy had Aspergers Syndrome. He was nearly excluded. His principal was an arrogant... well there are no words to describe it. He called this boy a weirdo behind his back to another student. And he only got sent for retraining. I say kick all professionals like that out. It makes me sick!  I could have been on the receiving end of that sort of thing from higher management at the college. After what my tutor said the other day, I'm beginning to think that the woman who gives out the punishments in the arts department has that kind of attitude. I just can't prove it and no one is going to speak out because they might get punished too. As far as where the land lies between me and that tutor goes, I've heard that she is unable to be in contact with me until her contract ends at the college. It's complicated apparently, there's probably a lot of threats over everyone involved knowing the education system. The whole system revolves around victimisation and threats to keep control, I swear it's the government trying to control everyone by moulding them when they're young. They start in the schools, anyone who doesn't fit into society gets kick out.