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I am utterly fed up of being ignored by people. You can only get rejected so long by friends etc before it really starts to affect me. In the area that I live I feel isolated because so many people no longer bother with me because of who I am. I know I text people too much and I do warn them before I kick off. It hurts me because I'm really open about my bad points but it never works. It's like others just can't be bothered. I get ignored all the time and it really makes it worse. It feels like no one wants to care. I got pregnant, yet people still don't bother with me. It doesn't help how I ended up in the area I lived in. All those damn rules associated with care staff because it's such a close area it singled me out. I'm equal though. I proved that by chosing to have my own child. I have a mini bump but it's more like I'm just a little fat still. I'm feeling him moving around but it doesn't feel real yet. I's really difficult to imagine there's a baby able to fit in there. I'm fed up of being nice to people then being ignored when it suites them. I only seem to be accepted by people with the same condition as me, not 'normal' people it's annoying. I don't want to be horrible but I prefer to hang with neurotypical people because the preciseness of aspergers people really irritating. It's probably because I'm only slightly on the spectrum. I don't have the intellectual brain that most of them do. I'm middle of the range intelligence which means non fun technical conversation bores me. I only seem to keep the boring ones who insist on having those conversations. I just hope my baby doesn't grow up to be a boring type as his father was boring. I'm hoping since he will not have any involvement as that is what we agreed that there is no way he can pick that personality up. I seem to scare all the fun friends off though. I want to do things in life but there never seems to be anyone to do anything with. It seems that everyone is busy especially this time of year. It sucks because I really want to find a band to sing with. I want to have a purpose in life like everyone else I know. It's not ideal at 6 months pregnant but it's better than sitting around waiting for baby to get here. I'm capable of doing it physically there's nothing stopping me. I need to keep myself busy so I don't get ignored by people. I won't annoy anyone if I'm too busy to text. I'm trying to write lyrics for own songs but when you don't play an instrument that is quite difficult. I can mix a tune on the laptop but that can be pot luck whether the song lyrics fit.