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I don't know whether to bother making them as most people never keep to them. I have decided I'm not going to drink Coka Cola anymore. It's full of shit and not good to drink anymore. It's probably bad for the baby too. He's kicking me a lot today so I think he's missing it too. It's addictive. But it's full of crap that shouldn't be consumed. I don't want the baby getting the same condition as me because of the stuff I'm consuming while I'm pregnant. I'm not saying Aspergers/Autism etc is the worse thing he could get but I live with the implications of having developed it every day of my life. I can't help how genetically he gets affected but if it is environmental or chemically induced I can help that. I don't smoke, only have slight amount of alcohol on special occassions. I eat healthily and I eat crap. I suppose that's a balanced diet. I'm doing the best for him. I can't do anymore. I'm starting to feel quite heavy already. I do have a bump but it's not huge yet. I don't know how I'm going to cope when I get bigger. I can still fit into most things as got bigger clothes from when I was fatter due to being on medication. I know 3 months seems not that long but it's dragging so much. April seems so far away. I know once I get bigger I'll be glad it's nearly over as my back is hurting now.

I'm also going to try to stop being so miserable. It's going to be hard because of how people treat me sometimes. It's not called for at all. I am who I am, I don't deserve to be disliked and ignored because of it. I don't think others realise how much it hurts to be left out by others because of the person that you are. That is why this year we are going to technically be forceful with our awareness campaigning. We will be force feeding the public the importance of acceptance of each others differences. It may be a little harsh but they say if you can't do things nicely to get the message across it's time to take a more drastic approach. Lets face it the tactics we've tried that are full of niceties and acceptable ways of awareness campaigns. We've got to go out there this year. We have to make a scene instead of staying in the background. I am shy and it is hard to just say what is needed without being scared of a backlash and always being punished for it. I'm used to my life being invaded by authorities anyway so I don't give a shit if I tread on anyones toes. They won't leave me alone anyway. I'm so used to being treated as a non person and left out because of how my condition affects me. It's not acceptable though and we have to teach that to the public. I have had so much shit in my life that wouldn't have occured if I hadn't had aspergers syndrome.